A letter to Aoife
In the heart felt words from Aoife’s Mummy
To my Effie Pie,
Where can I start? I never thought in a million years I would ever be writing this letter, you should be here with us, being wild and feral.
We have had the most fun filled and loving 3 years.
I feel right now, from the words of your favourite song (The Scientist by Coldplay) “Nobody said it was easy, it’s such a shame for us to part, nobody said it was easy, no one ever said it would be this hard, oh take me back to the start” and that is where this letter will start.
You were a surprise from the very beginning, I wasn’t meant to be able to get pregnant, and there you were…perfectly formed.
Then I had the terrible sickness. Was it just a bad case of food poisoning? The bigger belly, I was just putting on a bit of weight!
To find out I was actually pregnant with you my darling Aoife, that was the happiest day of my life, the biggest shock I have to say, but none the less – you made me complete from that moment and changed the world as I knew it forever and ever, I never ever dreamt I could be that happy.
To be honest, from the start you never did make things easy.
We went through gestational diabetes and our consultant decided it was best Mummy was induced to get you out, but you didn’t care much for that and you were born by emergency C section at 9:09pm on 21st January 2016.
The moment you arrived, Cousin Chloe beamed “She is ginger” and I was elated, mainly because I knew Aunty Kerry would be ever so jealous, I had created the perfect ginger Queen.
You absolutely loved being on the farm, jumping in the muddy puddles and riding on “Argy” and his horsey friend called “Poopurt”.
But when Bubbles came along you could do the riding by yourself, and you always mucked out Bubbles stable, you loved to make her feed and change her water.
Bubbles and you have an undeniable and unbreakable bond, and that is why Bubbles is helping to spread your story, and helping to bring you justice.
Last year we went to Alton Towers and you met “Hey Duggee” and rode on “Iggle Piggles” boat.
We even went yearly to Iggle Piggles house and watched “In the Night Garden”.
However, your real true passion is “Paw Patrol”, and like pup “Skye” says, “This pup’s got to fly”, so you are now busy being a hero with your wings, just like Skye.
Skye is with you, keeping you safe, and I am so glad you took her with you.
You made Mother’s day so special this year, on our trip to build a bear to build your very own talking Skye, you couldn’t have been more proud.
Your real hero though is “Queen Elsa”, demanding everyone called you as such, “I am not Effie, I am Queen Elsa” you would tell everyone.
We snuggled up in my bed every night and watched “Frozen”, perhaps once or twice!, before completely snuggling down together, while you demanded that I rubbed your back until you fell to sleep.
From that moment you and I were joined at the hip Effie Pie. You had me wrapped around your little finger.
You started talking very early, at only 6 months old, you are the brightest button, the most intelligent person I know, you grasped talking so easily and spoke far better than most people.
From the very start we always had Argy pony, your “big fat fella” as you called him and you came to work with me every day at the stables.
You would sit in your pushchair, on a hot water bottle, while we worked away, we even rescued horses together Effie!
And then one day, when you were barely walking, we saw an advert for “Bubbles” (your pony to be) and I just knew she was meant to be part of our family.
So off we went together, bought her, brought her home and that is where your love story with Bubbles began.
Aside from Bubbles, you absolutely love your friends and family. It goes without saying that you and I are completely inseparable, you really will always be Mummy’s best friend.
Going on holiday with you at any chance we got was always a real big must.
We had so many adventures together, we most recently went to Thomas Land and we had the time of our lives.
You absolutely loved it there, and when you finished treatment you wanted to go back and ride all the Thomas rides again.
You are the most kind little person anyone could wish to ever meet, your kindness shone through, everyone knows it, everyone can see it.
Your kindness is bringing so much love to the world, you are still making
huge changes and helping to save more young lives, you really are a superhero, a real life one!
I have written about your courage, but you truly have the heart of a lion and the bravery of one, your wild ginger mane resembles a lion so clearly.
You were never afraid to be yourself and we all love you an endless amount for it.
You would always pick out your own clothes outfits Pie, you were never a ‘girly girl’.
Your outfits match your spirit, carefree and running wild. I always think about your mismatched tops and leggings, your sparkly flashing wellies and your love to team different patterns, this is you and only you.
Only you Pie could pull off your look, I am so proud. You’ve taught me courage, to stand up and be counted.
I have to say Aoife, your temper is second to none, and you are so witty and quick to respond, I often wonder where you get it from.
The things you come out with! I honestly have no idea where they come from or how you have the ability at only 3, to think on your feet as you do.
I really am so proud you are a warrior, and as such I won’t stop pushing for your justice.
Your judge of character Pie is spot on, there is so much Mummy could say here, all I will say is that justice is inevitable as I just simply will not stop.
No matter what battle I have to fight, with you and for you, we will
win with one gigantic ‘punch’.
So, for now Effie Pie, until I get my special ticket on concorde to heaven, I will stay strong for you, but please come and visit me all the time and
leave your little signs.
I love you now, I love you then and I will love you forever and ever.
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